Sunday, July 31, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 20

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Hi! Today marks the halfway point of the days of Now. Another twenty days of this, and I'm gonna start living in the future like nobody's business. I've got things to plan, man!

I'm just kidding. I really love the focus these days have given me. It's a focus on Jesus and on gratitude that's been really great for my heart and mental attitude. Hey, that rhymes!

Today was monumental for another reason: it was my little baby Ben Ben's last day in the church nursery. He is turning four this week. I really don't know why everybody is so excited. This is not something to celebrate! This is a punch in the gut. I have no babies in my house anymore. I really stretched three and sucked it for all it was worth. Three is still baby. Four is not. My heart weeps.

But for some reason, everybody else thought we should open presents, eat cake, and act like everything is hunky dunky (name that movie). So, I went along with that. I'm a mom. I am resilient. I can do this.

My point in all this, is that right in the middle of the chocolate cake, Jesus gave me a gift. A now gift. It was just what I needed. I'm being a little dramatic about the whole punch in the gut thing. I really am grateful that I have a healthy boy who is growing, and I love celebrating the birth of all my children. But, I did feel an undercurrent of slight sadness today. The Lord knew that, and He cheered me right up with one of my top five favorite sounds in all the land: my sister's laugh.

Man, she pulled a doozy today that was especially magnified by her nine-months-pregnant state. How do I describe Holly's laugh? It was the meat of my childhood. If mom ever made sukiyaki for dinner, which we secretly called suki yucky, I knew I wouldn't die as long as I had Holly's laugh. I could survive any childhood terror with that beautifully contagious guffaw in my ears. Holly laughs with every fiber of her being, and that is what she did today.

It all started with the discovery of a portrait that Sara drew of me, her lovely mother.

Something about it set Holly to laughing. I think it was the teeth. Great waves of laughter rippled over her, and the tears flowed freely. She was consumed. She was past the point of control, and she couldn't stop. And, I, cheered and bolstered by this happy turn of events, set a pot of water to boil and gathered clean towels. For I knew that this would surely lead to the delivery of her baby in my living room. And my glad thought was that if she kept on laughing, I could keep the baby for myself, and she would never even notice.

The End.

Jesus, I heard You today in the sound of Holly's laugh. It is music to my ears. You are brilliant to have created it. ~R

He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy.
(Job 8:21)

Saturday, July 30, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 19

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Now. Jesus, I love You more than chocolate cake batter. I feel like a kid today. I can get so wrapped up in licking the bowl, I forget that there's a whole cake in the oven. You've been so good to me, blessed me with so many wonderful gifts, and yet I have a deliciously fluttery feeling that the best is yet to come. Just stopping to consider that makes my heart jump. ~R 

From the fullness of his grace we have all received one blessing after another.
(John 1:16)

Friday, July 29, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 18

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Lord, I recognized You when this day was only a newborn. Just when I despaired of ever finding a solution to my puzzle, You illuminated the answer. And I think I could have belted out the "Hallelujah" chorus. You really do know everything, and You really do have a solution for any problem I could ever have. Thank You for beaming some insight into my tired, confused, close-to-tears brainYour wisdom is beyond searching out, yet You tell us unsearchable things when we call to You. You are so good. ~R

Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out!
(Romans 11:33)

Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.
(Jeremiah 33:3)

Thursday, July 28, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 17

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 Jesus, cleaning out the fridge is not for the faint of heart. Or nose. But it is an almost overwhelming reminder of the importance of taking care of business. Now. I know I'm guilty of shoving things to the way back of my heart where they eventually grow mold and smell rotten. Help me, Lord. Teach me not to let any thought, any jealousy, offense, or frustration go unchecked or untended. Let's do this together. I'm not afraid if You are with me. Take the lid off, smell it, and dump it out if it stinks. I'm so thankful for You. I couldn't live without You. Come make my heart clean. ~R 

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
(1John 1:9)

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 16

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Lord, I think it a curious thing that my flowers can change from an alarming condition of droopiness... this lovely state of fullness in only ten minutes. Water is life-giving. I see You in this. It sounds pretty lame to tell You that You perk me up when I'm droopy. You do, but it's so much more monumental than that. You gave me life when I was dead! Your Spirit and Your Word water my thirsty soul. You seep in and fill every dry and dusty crevice until I am refreshed and full again. I'm so grateful that Your supply of water is never-ending, and You give it freely. I want to meet You at the well, sit by You, talk awhile, and just drink You in. ~R

Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
(John 4:13-14)

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 15, Sam's Story

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Almost nine years ago, God blessed us with Sam. He has been my joy, my firstborn, my sweet, tender-hearted, funny boy. This past Easter, an endocrinologist diagnosed him with a very rare syndrome that makes growing a difficult task. We were faced with a decision: try growth hormone or leave things as they are? So, we prayed and felt a peace about pursuing growth hormone.

If you have read my personal healing story, then you know that to protect the innocent, I named my neurologist Dr. Nice. Let's call Sam's endocrinologist Dr. Smart, so that I don't have to type out endocrinologist again and also because that guy is super smart. He knows his stuff. Dr. Smart informed us that growth hormone is astronomically expensive, so we would certainly need our insurance to cover it.

We have been denied. This syndrome is rare enough that it is not written into the policy. They want more tests. More proof. More sticking and poking and prodding. And so we wait. But in the meantime, we've been talking to Sam and praying. We told Sam that God can use the growth hormone to help him, but that He certainly doesn't need it. God can do anything. Sam believes that. And we long to believe it like children who haven't been tainted by intellectualism. 

God has given us peace and encouragement during this waiting time. The Bible says about Samuel the prophet, that he grew in stature and in favor with the Lord and with men. And in the New Testament, the boy Jesus also grew in wisdom and stature and in favor with God and men. I have told God that what He did for Samuel and for His own Son, I long for Him to do for my Sam. I've had such peace in my heart that He is doing that very thing. 

We had a three month follow-up with Dr. Smart today. His medical intern, Miss Gentle, came in the room and examined Sam beforehand. Noticing his Star Wars shirt, she asked him who his favorite superhero is. He scrunched up his face for a minute and then said, "Um...Jesus!" I looked at him and realized in that moment, that I love all 41 pounds of that kid more than I could ever say.  

When Dr. Smart came in and wanted to re-measure Sam, I knew something strange was happening. Dr. Smart, not his nurse, measured and re-measured Sam with a puzzled expression. You see, Sam has grown 2 cm. in just 3 months! This, according to Dr. Smart is unaccountable, impossible, and just couldn't be right. There must be some explanation! "Well," I said, trying to shed some light, "we have been praying for Sam to grow." But Dr. Smart wanted me to know that while he doesn't want to discount the power of prayer, this kind of growth is beyond normal. Yeah. That's God for you. He's way beyond normal.

We are still in waiting as far as our insurance goes, but this has been a happy day. We are perfectly content to let God do whatever He wants with our boy, because really, Sam is not our boy. He is God's.

Jesus, I saw you today in the face of Dr. Smart. Confounded is what he was. And that's what You do. You confound the wise. And I saw You today in the happy face of my boy. You are His favorite superhero! We can't wait to see what heroic deeds You do next. ~R

But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty.
(1 Cor. 1:27 KJV)

Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."
(Matthew 19:26)

Monday, July 25, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 14

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Now. Lord, You show me who You are in something as simple as coloring a picture. You are bright, creative, and definitely not boring. Never boring! Thank You for the way You color my life.

The one sitting on the throne was as brilliant as gemstones--like jasper and carnelian. And the glow of an emerald circled his throne like a rainbow. (Revelation 4:3 NLT)

40 Days of Now: Day 13

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In a river, gentle, but strong and full of the fellowship of good an unexpected shelter during a a day that sparkled like a gem, I saw You, Lord Jesus, and I'm glad to be alive. ~R

Saturday, July 23, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 12

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Like a Hummingbird

I have flitted to and fro,
darted here and there,
searched for bright and colorful things,
tried in vain to make myself bigger.

I am not frightened by my smallness now.
Having tasted Your nectar,
it is here I will stay.
At Your table,
You have set a place for me.
There is room
This is simple
I drink
You fill

Steady now
Peace is here
I fly at Your command.

Friday, July 22, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 11

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Jesus, I saw You tonight in the power of a testimony told with honesty, humor, strength, courage, and faith that what You have done for her, You will do for others. Only You can redeem such tragedy and exchange it for joy and truly abundant life. Yes, what the enemy intended for evil, You have made good. I'm blessed to have heard the story. ~R

They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death. (Revelation 12:11)

Thursday, July 21, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 10

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Hi. I think I love you. I know I love you, totally and unashamedly. I know this because I'm about to show you the most disgusting part of my house. We have a big utility sink in our garage which drains out right into a hole in the middle of the floor. I have never bothered to clean this little area in the four years since we have lived here. It's real classy lookin'. Despite that, it's not usually an area of interest to the kids. So when all three of them were huddled around the hole today, making excited little noises, I naturally shoved my way through the crowd to see what all the commotion was about.

"Mommy, it's a plant! A little plant is growing!" Sure enough, there it was. An innocent, hopeful little seedling, bursting with life, right there in the darkest, slimiest part of the house. Oh, what a picture of hope, I thought. So, I took a picture of the picture of hope. And the flash on my camera illuminated some things that I couldn't even see until I downloaded the pictures.
Millipedes! Cobweb! Unidentifiable Gunk! How do you like that? I super-sized it, so you could see the millipedes, 'cause I know you really want to see them. They're on the left, crawling around the side. They're black. I didn't know they were there! I don't know why that kind of creeps me out. Bugs don't usually bother me. Also, check out the dried up old worms laying by the edge of the hole. Have you had enough? 'Cause I'm just getting started here. I mean, is that a dead granddaddy long legs there? I walk by this hole every day. Maybe I should clean it. Next week.

Okay, it's time to get serious. This little seedling, growing up out of the depths of a nasty hole, is a great reminder of the power of the new life we have in Christ! It is resurrection life! A life redeemed from the pit.

Oh, God of Life, only You can bring life out of death, hope out of hopelessness. You bring beauty out of our ashes. You lift us up out of the slime of our circumstances and shine Your light on us.  You clear out the cobwebs, and sweep away the stench of decay. You make us new! You make us new! My heart rejoices over You. ~R

Beautiful Things

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all

All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make me new, You are making me new

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 9

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Now. Wow. God, You are a big picture kind of guy. And You have reminded me today, that all of my now moments are pieces of a bigger picture. You are weaving something beautiful, and each day is like another precious thread on Your loom, unique and necessary for the finished work to come out right. I keep thinking about David and how he must have felt the moment Samuel anointed him to be the next king of Israel. Now that was a moment to remember. And yet, it was years before he actually took the throne. And Abraham! Your promise to him had only just begun to unfold by the time he died. And now, today, I see this glimpse, this glimmer that the dream I had a year and a half ago is beginning to unfold as well. And every day from then until now and beyond is another thread in Your weaving. Keep weaving, oh beautiful Weaver! I am watching, mesmerized. Your artfulness takes my breath away. ~R

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 8

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Now. Jesus, I see You today in the practical love of a friend, taking the kids for the day so I could rest. I think seeing You in people is my favorite, because that's what You want--for us to be living expressions of Your love. Your love is so extravagant, but it is also practical. You washed dirty feet, You fed hungry people, You befriended the outcasts, and You healed the sick. Oh, how I love this part of Your character! And I am so blessed to have friends and family who display this kind of love often. Thank You for loving me through her today. ~R

When he had finished washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place. “Do you understand what I have done for you?” he asked them. "You call me ‘Teacher’ and ‘Lord,’ and rightly so, for that is what I am. Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet. I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you. Very truly I tell you, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them.
(John 13:12-17)

Monday, July 18, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 7 and Checking In

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Hi, friend. Today marks one week of this 40 day challenge, and I kind of feel like checking in with you. If you have been participating, what do you think so far? Has this exercise been good for you? Do you love it? Do you hate it? Too easy? Too hard?

What I like about doing this, is that when I wake up in the morning, I feel expectant. I know that because I am asking Jesus to reveal Himself to me each day, He will. It kind of feels like getting to open a present every day. And even though life is busy, and will always be that way, I think this has helped me to at least slow down in my mind. I'm paying attention to my day, not flying through it (in my mind), not just trying to make it and get to the next thing. 

I really love that I can say this has been more than just a week of summer activities and household chores. It's been a week of now moments. A week of Jesus in the small or big, the practical or extravagant, the ordinary or extraordinary things that just might go unnoticed unless I'm paying attention. I'm learning to live right now, find Him now, worship now, before this moment passes forever. 

So, if you haven't tried this yet, I would encourage you to join me and the others who I know are journaling their now moments, too. I know you will be blessed!

Today was a perfect example of why this challenge has been good. I have a head cold, and haven't done much today. I'm feeling puny and pasty and very unmotivated. This is exactly the kind of day that usually seems like a wasted one to me. Yep. Throw that one in the trash. That was a dumb one. I've had days like that more often than I like to admit. But, because Jesus is helping me be intentional, this day is not a total loss. He came and ministered to me while I was reading "Horton Hatches the Egg" to my kids. Yeah, that's right. Dr. Seuss.

Dear, sweet, faithful Horton. Here's an elephant who keeps his promises. He told Mayzie, that flaky bird, that he would sit on her egg and give her a break. Little did he know his babysitting gig would last 51 weeks! But he would not get off that egg for anything!

He stayed through harsh weather

and the taunting and jeering of his friends.

Even with guns pointed at him, Horton remained fixed on that egg, determined to keep his promise. He could have come down. No one would have blamed him. That fickle Mayzie was the one to blame for everything. She shirked her responsibility! Shirker!

Jesus, You know me. I am Mayzie. I am fickle. I am flaky. I am a shirker! I am to blame. You are the blameless One, yet You hung on that cross for me. You knew what You were getting into, but You promised anyway. They looked up at You, jeering and taunting, but You stayed. You might have come down. No one could have blamed You. You did nothing wrong, but still You stayed. You were determined. And You stayed. You meant what You said, and You said what You meant. Jesus, You are faithful, one hundred percent. ~R

Sunday, July 17, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 6

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Now.  Lord, I saw You today in the face of a friend, shining with the excitement of the vision, the calling You have given her. I could see it all the way across the room. She was lit from within. I know how that feels; it was fun to actually see it today. Thank You for Your Holy Spirit's creativity. You inspire, excite, motivate, encourage, and teach. When You ask us to do something, You give us everything we need to follow through with Your plan. And when we are walking in obedience, full of You, we can't help but be radiant. You, after all, are the light of the world! Without You, I'm a cold, dark stone. ~R

Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces.
(Psalm 34:5, NLT)

May God be gracious to us and bless us

and make his face shine on us

 so that your ways may be known on earth,

your salvation among all nations.
(Psalm 67:1-2)

You Are the Sun

By Sara Groves and Matt Bronlewee
You are the sun shining down on everyone

Light of the world giving light to everything I see

Beauty so brilliant I can hardly take it in

And everywhere you are is warmth and light

And I am the moon with no light of my own

Still you have made me to shine

And as I glow in this cold dark night

I know I cannot be a light unless I turn my face to you

Shine on me with your light

Without you I'm a cold dark stone

Shine on me I have no light of my own

You are the sun, you are the sun, you are the sun

And I am the moon

Saturday, July 16, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 5

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Jesus, I see You now in these two boys, off for their first camping trip, all alone, without any girls. Their love for each other, their excitement in the planning--it has Your fingerprints all over it. I'm thinking of how much You talked about Your Dad when You were here, and how You were always trying to sneak away, so You could be alone with Him. There's just something about a father and his son. It's almost mysterious to me. I will never really understand it. But I don't have to understand it to know that You are in it. So, thank You. I'm blessed to catch this glimpse of You now. 

 Don’t you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work.
(John 14:10)

Friday, July 15, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 4

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I pray that your partnership with us in the faith may be effective in deepening your understanding of every good thing we share for the sake of Christ.
(Philemon 1:6)
Now. Lord, I see You today in a young woman. She has sold her belongings, packed up the rest, hugged her precious family and friends, and hopped on a plane. She's on the other side of the world now, settling in, ready to do Your work. She's doing this for You and for Your people, and I can't stop thinking about her. I can't help but wonder what it would be like if she had my life and I had hers. I can't help thinking that what she is doing is more significant, more pleasing, more eternal. But You say something different. You've given her this call. And You've given me mine. And so I pray for her. And in this moment, she and I are partners. Working together! This is the way You planned it, and I think it's beautiful. I think You are beautiful and wonderful as a designer. I'm so thankful that I can share in her ministry. This is such a privilege. In an instant, I can be there in spirit as I pray for her and the new community where she lives.

I wonder if You laugh at how we marvel over our advances in technology that make it possible to instantly communicate with people all over the world. We pat ourselves on the back for our intelligence, when You're the one Who's had instant communication in place for ages. I can talk to You and join with other believers before the words even come out of my mouth, the instant they form in my heart. Now that's high tech! I marvel over You. You are a wonder. ~R

Thursday, July 14, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 3

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Where can I go from your Spirit?

Where can I flee from your presence?

 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;

if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,

if I settle on the far side of the sea,

 even there your hand will guide me,

your right hand will hold me fast.

 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me

and the light become night around me,”

 even the darkness will not be dark to you;

the night will shine like the day,

for darkness is as light to you.
(Psalm 139:7-12)

Now. Even now, Lord, Your presence surrounds me. If I hide myself in this towering pile of laundry, You are there. Yes, even there. I sit, cross-legged, on the floor, folding, folding, folding. The repetitive monotony of the task wears away any thought that this moment might be significant. How is it that I am here, stacking clothes and towels, and not in a jungle, searching out that secluded tribe who have never met You? Yes, Lord, I know that I am serving my family. Yes, Your blessings are evident here. We have clean clothes, and plenty of them. But more than that, it's Your faithfulness that pierces through my dullness now. These clothes will get dirty again. And I will wash them again. And again. And I will tire of it. But, You, Lord, never tire. Your faithfulness reaches to the skies, higher than the highest pile of laundry. I sin, yet You forgive and forgive and forgive again. The repetitive nature of Your job does not wear You down. Your mercies toward me are new each morning. Great is Your faithfulness! I am thankful. ~R

So, how are things with you? Did you find Him today? Or did He find you?

Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies.
(Psalm 36:5)

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 2

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Now. I almost threw this card away today. I love to sew fabric to cards. It's like sending a tiny little quilt in the mail. This one would have been pretty cute if I had listened to my own warnings and glued that blue strip down first. It's crooked and puckery and that really bugs me, so my plan was to toss it and make another one. But I just couldn't do it. I couldn't throw her in with the empty boxes and crumpled paper, despite her flaws. I spent time and energy on her and thought about the person to whom I would send it. I just couldn't throw her away. So, I will fill her with words to thank and encourage, and send her off, and she will fulfill her purpose, despite her imperfections.

Lord, if You were in the business of discarding flawed people, I would have been in the trash a long time ago. But You look beyond my imperfections and give me purpose. You fill me with good things. It is Your pleasure to use the weak and damaged for Your glory. I feel weak today; thank You for using me anyway. I love You so much. ~R

So, where did you see Him today?

And now, dear children, continue in him, so that when he appears we may be confident and unashamed before him at his coming. (I John 2:28)

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

40 Days of Now: Day 1

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Now. Lord, I lived today. I was present, looking for You in every moment. And You were there. You are here.

I saw you in the farmer at the farmer's market. He has worked the soil for years, faithfully bringing in his colorful harvest to feed us. I'm so thankful that You are faithful to work the soil of my heart and produce good things in me.

Thank You for these lovely vegetables we picked out today. You did such a great job when You made fruits and vegetables! There is nothing like a ripe tomato or a fresh ear of corn. This is summer at it's best, and it makes me love You all the more. Also, potatoes are among Your finest creations in my opinion. 

I want You to know that as much as I appreciate the food You provide us every day, nothing nourishes and sustains me like Your presence. Teach me to be present in Your presence. Hee, hee. I'm serious, though. I love You. ~R 

P.S. Thank You for the song, too. about you, friend? Where did you see Jesus today?

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:13)

Monday, July 11, 2011

40 Days of Now

Gratitude. Praise. Appreciation. Applause. Honor. Grace. All are synonyms for Thankfulness. All are offerings I want to give to my Creator and my King.

Give thanks in everything...

means give thanks for Now.

I am eager to thank the Lord always for the good things He has done for me. That was my purpose behind blogging in the first place. It is good and right to remember His works.

I am equally eager to thank Him for what I know He will do. He will come back! He will rescue me from this place and take me Home. He will restore everything Satan has stolen and broken. I will see Him someday!

Someday is where I live most of the time; I have a thrilling preoccupation with Heaven. I like to hang out in Yesterday every now and then, too. But I rarely lay my picnic blanket down in the backyard of Now and just enjoy it for awhile.

I see this in my daughter. She's forever looking to the next thing, unaware of the beauty of the present moment. It makes me so sad for her, but how do I teach her a different way when I am Christmas shopping in July? The irony is, that I am Christmas shopping in July so that I can enjoy December. But if my shopping is done, I will most assuredly spend December planning for the events of spring.

A friend and I were recently discussing the value of the journey to where we are going. Without it...well...we just wouldn't get there! But joy in the journey must, I believe, be achieved through discipline, if it does not come naturally to a person. That's me! 

The Lord dropped this in my heart last night about one in the morning as I tried in vain to sleep. 40 days of...40 days of what, Lord? 40 days of all potatoes, all the time? 40 days of digging deeper into Deuteronomy? And then I got my answer this morning: 40 days of Now! Yes, If I look to the past, I will see the hand of God. And someday I will see my Jesus in Heaven. But if I choose to, I can see Him today. Right now. I don't have to wait. He's here, waiting to reveal Himself in a million different ways. 

So, His challenge to me is to find Him every day for 40 days. I'm feeling up for it! Oh, also, I'm inviting you! Do you want to join me? I hope you do! It would be ever so much more fun that way. I will be posting every day. If you want, write down your own Now thoughts in a journal or your own blog or you can tell about it in my comments section below.

 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?  (Isaiah 43:19) 

avandia recall